A Simple, Honest Life

Phone Apps

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South Park did a great bit on Amazon’s vicious cycle of consumers and workers.

It was AMAZON PRIME DAY this week! Which extended into not one day, but two days (they should probably rename it), and a CONCERT (which I watched, because Taylor Swift). All aimed at getting you to CONSUME, CONSUME, CONSUME. They even have PRE-SALE events! Come on! Buy something you didn’t even think about as something you WANTED (never mind NEED) until you saw it on your super convenient app that you open several times a day. As if Black Friday wasn’t bad enough.

Well, I deleted my Amazon Prime app for prime day and haven’t downloaded it again since. I’m a big Amazon shopper for household items. Toilet paper, paper towels, laundry detergent. The stuff I don’t want to get at the store a haul up three slights of stairs. I figure I can get on a desktop compute from now on to buy those things though. I buy too much stuff on Amazon as it is just for the convenience of having the app at my fingertips and all my payment information saved on there.

When I talk about a simple life in regards to a minimalist mindset I think people tend to think about their physical space. Cleaning closets, downsizing kitchen utensils, donating items etc. I want to share about the last eight months or so where I started minimizing my phone apps and let me tell you – it feels great! I think digital minimalism is super underrated and not talked about as much as our physical spaces.

How many shopping apps do you have on your phone? If you had asked me a year ago I would have had over five, at least. Amazon, Target, Modcloth, Vinted, you name it! And how many apps do you have in general? Don’t count the ones you can’t delete. Go ahead, count. I have 43.

Social and entertainment apps take up the most of my space and those include Facebook, Messenger, Instagram, Goodreads, Twitter, Unfold, Podcast Preview and Messenger. Then I’ve got an entertainment section and a music section.

And that’s kind of it. The second page over has some financial apps – my bank, credit card and venmo – but I look at those more as necessities than wants.

Cutting down apps isn’t just about the look and feel of your phone though. Yes, it’s true that my phone is now simpler and easier to navigate, but overall it does one really important thing for me that I hope can give you an alternative to your current situation. Not only does having an excess of shopping and game apps on your phone make you waste more money, but it also wastes our most valuable resource: time. At the end of the day time is our ONLY commodity. Can’t shop, play games, or browse cat pics if you’re dead. And (morbid moment) that could happen at any moment. Do we want to spend hours of our day scrolling our feeds, or engaging in conversation with friends? Do we want to half watch a movie while online shopping at our fingertips, or do we want to be fully engaged?

I used to wake up in the mornings and just sit on my phone for two hours before work. Now that my apps are hidden away I tend to just spend about 15-20 minutes looking at my social and entertainment apps when I get home. There’s a glorious time when I get home from work where I’m alone for about 30 minutes. I take that time to do my phone thing. I’ll do a bit of Duolingo, check my Insta, say hi to the family on Facebook and look up recipes on Pintrest. It’s my phone time. That’s not to say I’m not looking at my phone a few times a day at work, in the morning or after dinner. I’m just being more conscious about phone time. I’m not perfect and I’m still learning. But I think the first step of that is to be CONCISION of our phone time.

I even deleted *deep breath* Wizards Unite this week. I was so looking forward to this game. I wanted it to be good. I wanted it to have the same connotations that Pokemon Go had a first. Kids and adults in the parks, running after a freshly spawned Snorlax. The truth is it’s kind of boring, doesn’t make much sense and has started to feel like a chore rather than something I wanted to spend my time on. I deleted it and I have zero regrets about it. In fact it feels like a huge weight off my shoulders.

This is just a small post about the benefits I’ve seen from minimizing my phone apps. I would like to go more in depth into this in the future, but for now here is just a few ideas for your own mental health. I’ve got a whole post in mind for no phone zones: bedroom, bathroom, dinners out, etc. I think I just want to put the idea in your brain for now about considering the minimization of phone apps. Really analyzing what the apps are doing for you and if they’re bringing value to your life or if you just find yourself opening them at random and hoping for some distraction.

Something to considering going into the weekend.

A Simple, Honest Life

A Simple, Honest Life: The Beginning

June has been hard. There I typed it. I feel that I’ve been in a daze since it started. There’s a reason I did A Photo A Day twice. I honestly couldn’t think of anything else to do. That’s a bit unlike me. I feel like sometimes I have so many ideas in my head that the only issue is not having enough time to see them through. For some reason the last month or so those ideas have stopped.

I wasn’t really sure what was wrong with me until I spent some time with myself out in nature this weekend. There was no cell service. Minimal husband distraction. I got to really spend some time with myself. The main chunk of this was climbing a vertical incline for two solid hours. During this hike to hell I started to think more about this ‘June Gloom’ and I started piecing through what was at the heart of it. So bare with me and I’ll take you through that journey of self realization.

Just put me out of my misery.

I posted a lot of great photos of this hike on my Instagram of the views and the trees, but I never posted this one of me half way through a hike wanting to just end it all and jump off the nearest cliff (there were many to choose from and was sorely tempted).

I love hiking and being in nature so much, but I’ve been so out of shape since last fall that every single hike is a struggle now. That’s something I’d never admit, until now. So anyway, I’m telling husband to go up ahead because he’s barely breaking a sweat with a ‘isn’t this fun!’ grin and I am red in the face, sweating profusely and pretty sure I’m gonna vom.

I’m like the big bad wolf just huffing and puffing my way up this incline with no one else in sight and I start thinking about how a few hours ago in the air conditioning of my car I was really excited to get into nature and start to reflect on what has been wrong in my head lately. Why have all my ideas stopped? I’ve been so busy at work lately I come home, make dinner and by the time I’m done eating at 7:30 I am ready for a shower and the hope that I’m awake enough to read in bed until 9. Lately I’ve been falling asleep with a book in my hand around 8:30.

As I’m dragging my fat ass up what feels like a goddamn mountain I’m wondering how I’d feel if I had a heart attack. A heart attack that suddenly feels very imminent as I can feel my heart trying to escape my body. I mean obviously I’d feel pain and panic, but how would I feel about my life? I started out this site hoping to have a place to be creative, but I remember my first challenge, the Minimalist Wardrobe. I had been thinking about minimalism for years. It felt so good to finally give my wardrobe a shot at downsizing and it felt so good to knock that out. Then I went into Honest Pictures. I had the most fun with this challenge. It was so refreshing to be open about my online presence and help people see that all the content we digest is curated to fit a certain idea. It’s so rare we get the full story from one photo or video clip.

When I started to think of my other challenges. I thought they were fun and taught me things, but nothing felt as good and right as my challenges helping to simplify my life and be honest.

Back to me dying on a butte. Honesty and Simplicity. I’m repeating this over and over to myself as I wipe sweat from my burning hot face, trying to ignore the stench I’m starting to take on. Left step is honesty, right step is simplicity. Honesty, Simplicity. Goddamn how am I not at the top yet? How come I can’t think of a new monthly challenge? Why have I stopped writing? How come June has left me feeling like I’m drowning? How do I escape my Monday-Friday rut that I can’t seem to see a way out of? How come the only time I’ve felt content lately is when I’m sleeping? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

Pause for a moment more to let a family pass on their way back down. Their little kid is wearing a Spiderman shirt and I’m trying to not hyperventilate in his face, but I think he sees the struggle in my dead eyes. I might die on this hill.

“You’re almost there!” He beams at me as he passes.

“Cool.” I manage to gasp out.

A woman passes with her two dogs.

“It’s beautiful up there. You’re gonna love the view. There’s only about five more switch backs.”

“Five?”

She must see the panic in my eyes.

“They’re easy. You’ll be fine.”

This woman looks like she climbs mountains for a living. She might be fine, but I am definitely going to die. The group passes and I snag some water out of my bag. I’m thinking of the view at the top and how if it really is a great view as the woman says it’ll make for a great picture to post on Instagram. I’m half way through my drink and I stop.

Am I doing this hike and killing myself to take a picture so I can share it with people? No, that’s not completely true. I really do love hiking and nature. How would I feel if I had left my phone at the campsite though? Nothing to document. That would suck. I realize that I want that picture of the view at the time. I want to post it and have people think what I already know about myself: Holly is someone that likes to hike. Well, that’s true I do. People wont know how hard hiking has been for me lately though if I just post a picture of the view with a #pnw caption. Maybe my picture will say to people: Holly is an adventurer. I wish I could be in nature like Holly.

Now my mind is running through my honest pictures challenge. Didn’t I do a whole fucking month of breaking down this toxic thinking and trying to burn it to the ground? Didn’t I set out to try to be more honest myself? With other people? To help people digest their social content in a healthier way? To show my love for minimalism and how it can help others? How much of that passion, that message have I actually lived lately?

Bag of clothes I don’t wear that I bought in the last five months and have nowhere to put them other than this Trader Joes bag.

I think guiltily of the bag of thrift shop clothes I have in my closet. The clothes I bought but can’t fit on hangers because I threw all my hangers out with my new ‘light’ lifestyle. I think of the social posts I’ve made lately. Have they been to share an honest experience or to show I’m having a good time? What is the value in my life to just show people I’m having a good time?

I put my water back in my pack and pull out my phone. I snap a pic of my red sweaty face and let my exasperation and exhaustion show through. It’s not the prettiest picture of me I’ve ever taken (not by a long shot), but it’s real.

Honestly, Simplicity. That’s where I’ve strayed off the path. That’s what I really set out to do with this site. That’s what I’ve been lacking online and in my personal life.

I’d like to say that with this realization I suddenly made my body lighter and more free. I was able to bound up the next thousand feet and the Butte that I cursed earlier, I suddenly had a fondness for. These would be lies. After all there were five more switch backs to get to. Fuck this butte.

I ended up taking so long to get to the top that the clear amazing view of Mt. Hood that people on the way down were telling me about was now covered in clouds.

Normally this would have left me frustrated, but I was just glad to be alive. There were a zillion mosquitoes up there too so as much as I’d like to say I spread my arms wide and breathed in the fresh mountain air and took in the millions of trees and breathtaking views, I just ended up snapping this photo and then grumpily asking my husband if we could go now because I was being eaten alive.

I bounded down the way I came up in much less time, with a spring in my step. Despite the view turning out shit, despite globs of sweat under my boobs and the bites on my arms, my creative block seemed clear. Even though I’m a bit more out of shape than I’m used to at the moment I was marveling at how my body manged to take me up that hill. Despite the heavy breathing and straining muscles it was able to do its job and take me where my mind willed it to go. My body is kind of amazing. I’m going to spend less time hating it and more time celebrating it. I’m going to be more honest about it. I’m going to keep simplifying my life. I’m going to Kondo out my closet (again), because it’s okay if it takes a few tries to get it right. I’m not going to solve all my problems in one monthly challenge. I’m going to buy less, save more. I’m going to tell you all about it. I’m going to tell you when I mess up and buy too much. I’m going to share the truth about my trips, the good and the bad. I’m going to share my struggles with simplifying and my triumphs. I want you to share all yours with me too.

So that’s what this new tab on the site will be. A Honest, Simple Life. I think you readers will like it better when I’m honest with you and I realize now that my subconscious likes it too. It punishes me (as experienced by June Gloom) when I fall behind on my passion. Because that’s what it is: a passion. I am passionate about sharing my life with you all. I’m passionate about hearing about your lives and your struggles. Your Photo A Day posts with the #PictureTheLittleThings hashtag inspired me. Your desire to minimize your own closets and kitchens put a smile on my face. You truths about your own travels and vacations made me feel less alone when I struggle away from home.

I do have a new monthly challenge for July that I’m really excited about, but I will be making posts here too to share with you all and have you share with me your simple and honest lives.

Thx, Nature. I owe you one.
April 2019 - Fruit · April 2019 - Fruit

Fruit – Week Three

I was desperate to try Guava again this week, and I found a tiny version for a reasonable price at a local market. It was way less expensive than the one I bought at the Japanese market, but I was wary because it was so small and soft. It was definitely ripe though, and was the first thing I tried this week.

Mini Guava from Mexico

I cut open the little guava and found that it’s white inside. I was a little bummed because I’m looking for that pink inside guava, the one the internet says taste like a combination between a pear and a strawberry. The two guavas I’ve had so far (the mini pictured here, and the green giant from last week) taste like grass. I can’t think of another way to describe it besides maybe mushy grass. I know the big one wasn’t ripe yet, but this one was and it tasted the same. Also this mini is packed with seeds that I’m told you can eat, but will probably break your teeth if you try. Not a fan, but not giving up on guava until I get my pink guava. Any tips on where to find this pink variety would be helpful.

Sweet Lime from USA

Next I had a sweet lime. It looked like a mini lemon, but was very lime like when cut open. The inside was a white yellow. I expected it to be sweet because of the name, but it honestly just tasted like water. Meh.

I was excited about the citrus though so I left my sweet lime in the garbage where it belongs and went right into a citrus kick the rest of the week. I was so bummed about the guava and mini lemon water (can that be its new name?) that I was desperate for something good to eat. I had always wanted to try blood orange and never had (I know, why not Holly?) and it did not disappoint. The inside was just as dark red as I imagined, and I loved that the outside had bits of burnt red on it too. The inside was delicious. Super juicy and good, but stained everything. So clean up real quick and try not to get it everywhere if you’re enjoying one in your home.

I tried a Cara Cara orange next. I might have had this variety before at some point, but I’m honestly not sure and I was super curious about the inside because the sticker said ‘I’m pink’ on it, which it was. I enjoyed this one a lot, but the flavor didn’t differ to me too much from a standard orange. I’d get it again though.

The last citrus of the week was a Honeygold Grapefruit. So this one was labeled as Honeygold, but when I Googled Honeygold grapefruit Google informed me that it’s just another name for a Melogold grapefruit. Melogold, on the outside, looks just like the Honeygold I grabbed at the store. Yellow skin, freckled a bit. However, I was expecting yellow flesh, as the internet had informed me that the inside of a Melogold is yellow, and instead got a light pink – just like with a standard ruby red grapefruit. So in the end I’m not sure what I ate. It also tasted like a ruby red, but smaller and it had more sections which made it harder to eat, but I feel like it was a little sweeter. Overall I liked it, but not sure it differed much from a ruby red to deserve the extra price tag.

Here are some other grapefruit varieties I’ll have to try someday. Let me know if you’ve had any of these:

  1. Flame Grapefruit
  2. Lavender Gem Grapefruit
  3. Duncan Grapefruit
  4. Marsh Seedless Grapefruit
  5. Oro Blanco Grapefruit
  6. Melogold Grapefruit
  7. Pomelos
  8. Star Ruby Grapefruit
  9. Pink Grapefruit
  10. Red Grapefruit
  11. Thompson Grapefruit
  12. Sweeties Grapefruit
  13. White Grapefruit
Juicy Apple

Finally after our hike this morning I enjoyed a ‘Juicy’ apple. I told you last week that there were more than 20,000 named varieties of apples. This one was just labeled a Juicy Apple. I thought maybe it was a type I’d never heard of before so I bought it. Then when I tried to do research on it I found it nearly impossible because if I google a form of ‘juicy apple’ or ‘juicy apple variety’ the internet just wants to tell me all about what types of apples are the juiciest. So I’m not sure if I ate a new type of apple or not honestly. It didn’t taste like one I’ve had before. It was like a mix between a Fuji and a Honeycrisp. Not sure, but if you know, please let ME know. I rather enjoyed it.

Overall, an interesting fruit week.

I’m wrapping up my book on the banana and the fruit hunter people. I’m going to watch the fruit hunter documentary next week and I’ll let you all know what fun facts come out of that one.

I’ll leave you with this picture from our hike today out at Cape Lookout in Tillamook, Oregon.

It was beautiful and we saw whales. It was also very muddy, we forgot water and I got a sunburn on my extremely susceptible to sunburn cheeks. Best to tell the truth. Pictures are just snapshots of someone’s day after all, they don’t represent the entire day.