Sunday was wedding day! I cannot express the joy I felt watching my beautiful (inside and out) friend walk down the aisle to the true love of her life.
The wedding itself was so touching and the after wedding party was great. A lot of catching up with old friends and really just having a good time. It was exactly how one hopes a wedding goes.
Before we left Sunday, I made sure to say a good goodbye to the cutest dog, Boscoe. This is my In-Laws little boy and he is just the cutest. He’s a spoiled little thing, but I adore him.
We left Spokane around 10 and got home around 4. Laundry and rest was had and then an early bed to get back into the week.
Nothing says Monday like stocks. I snapped a pic of my average morning on Monday. I usually get up at 6 and zone out on the couch for a half hour watching the morning news and waking up. Around 6:30 I grab a cup of coffee and try to wake up more efficiently. At 7 I get dressed and I’m out the door by 7:30 to make it to work around 8.
It’s getting kind of old and I’m starting to constantly wonder what’s next. Is this it? We’ll get to that next week….
I felt like I finally got a chance to play the new Niantic Wizards Unite game on Tuesday. This game came out while I was in the wilderness with no cell service. This caused a late start for me and with all the wedding stuff and driving I hadn’t really had a chance to play.
Now that I have though I’m really enjoying it. I am a Magizoologist at level 8. Add me 4602 9212 0437.
I had a great happy hour after work with friends but we were having such a good time I didn’t take any photos. I kind of love it when that happens. It means you were fully in the moment, which I’ve been trying to do more when I’m with other people.
I think the best thing about Wednesday was this dog patiently waiting for her owner to come back. I was waiting for a smoothie I’d just ordered and this little thing was so cute. Dogs are the best.
Thursday we were supposed to play kickball, but we had a huge thunderstorm roll in. It rained most of the day so the game was canceled.
I was using kick ball as my 30 minutes of activity this day and with the lightning I didn’t think I was going to get any walking in. Luckily at work we have a great indoor desk treadmill you can use so I hopped on it for a half hour after lunch. Too bad indoor walking doesn’t help open portkeys in Wizards Unite.
I came home and made my favorite five layer dip and vegged out on the couch to catch up on Big Little Lies.
After work on Friday we went to finally see Toy Story 4. People were describing it as the sequel we didn’t know we needed. I disagree. It was a good film, but completely unneccessary. Also, *spoiler* that goodbye between Woody and Buzz was a letdown.
I took this photo in between advertisements before the movie started. I remember when I worked at a movie theater when I was 16-17 we had this really annoying thing before the trailers started called Movie Tunes. I hated it because to someone who worked there I heard all the same 25 songs they played over and over. Now though, I would prefer Movie Tunes to all these advertisements for Gieco and spoilers to upcoming films. It’s a constant loop that never stops playing. Bring back the music.
Now that June is essentially over, thanks for sticking with A Photo A Day for TWO months instead of just the one. I’m honestly not sure what I’m doing for July on here. It’s been kind of a weird few months for me. I’m hoping some time in nature this weekend will help bring me out of a funk and back to you all next week with something different and exciting.
We did nothing this weekend and it was so nice. Our weekends are packed starting this upcoming weekend and not letting up until July so it was nice to not go anywhere or have plans.
I spent Saturday on the deck in the shade eating outshine lime bars and reading books and it was perfect.
Again, nothing exciting Sunday except this vegan sandwich I devoured in seconds. It was smashed chickpeas, avocado, cucumbers and a ton of veggies.
It wasn’t much to look at so I didn’t post it anywhere, but the bread was fresh baked and it was amazing.
I went to this great nail salon in Portland on Monday called Finger Bang. I’ve been there a few times and they even did my nails for my wedding.
I’m not a big fan of sitting for an hour just getting my nails done. I honestly go maybe twice a year, but this place does really cute nail art and I wanted something special for my friend’s wedding.
Tuesday was my last day of work before vacation. We celebrated my boss’ birthday a bit early. I think we might have gone over the top with decorations, but it was fun.
I came home and cleaned and packed. I’m usually a light packer but for some reason with it being a wedding weekend and all I brought a ton of stuff. Way more than I actually used. Lesson learned.
Wednesday we drove all day to get to the cabin that my Aunt owns in Idaho. We were ready for two days of solitude and swimming.
Unfortunately the weather was freezing and there was rain in the forecast. I took a lot of beautiful photos of the lake and the cabin, but didn’t really share what we spent most of our time doing.
We relaxed in front of the fire, drank wine and played board games. Not super photogenic time, but we loved it.
Thursday we had a morning dip in the lake (it was freezing) and then we drove to a hike that took us down some perilous back roads. The one pictured was easy, but there was a point where it took us 30 minutes to go four miles.
We spent the entire time hoping we didn’t blow a tire on accident.
The hike was amazing and afterwards we drove into Sandpoint and had amazing Mexican food and awesome ice cream. My brother-in-law drove up that night and we spent some more time in front of the fire and had BBQ.
Relaxation time was officially over on Friday and I raced back into Spokane in the morning to have a lunch with a friend and meet her adorable baby for the first time.
After that I was officially on a time limit and I took a quick shower and dressed up for a wedding rehearsal and dinner. Bridesmaid duties included walking up and down an aisle about seven times and seeing old friends. Pretty easy and fun.
We cooed over my friend’s new baby some MORE – as pictured – and many ridiculous times were had in preparation for the Saturday wedding.
“Will you take a picture of me at my rock bottom?” I asked my Aunt in her kitchen in Spokane. She had just handed me a giant Costco box of Clif bars her kids wouldn’t eat and some leftover food for my journey back to Portland. I would end up eating those Clif bars for dinner every night for two weeks until they were gone.
We were visiting Spokane for the weekend, just a few weeks after I’d been fired for the job I moved to Portland for. We were there to get the rest of our stuff out of storage. I had just spent the last few hours lamenting my woes to her about what I assumed was my terrible decision to move away. I had $167 in my checking account, no savings, no job and two higher education degrees that at the time felt as worthless a receipt paper.
Like many other millennials, I was promised that if I went to college and got a degree I could graduate and go do anything I wanted. If I just worked hard, someone would pay me for my hard work. Unfortunately no one told us the economy was going to collapse in 2008 and thousands of graduates would be left scrambling for any part time job that would pay them so they could eat anything besides Clif bars for dinner.
“Many millennials began their working live after the financial meltdown of 2008, when the stock market lost half its value. If they followed their parents’ script, went to college, and took on debt, expecting their parents’ results. Instead they were greeted with an economy in free fall and fewer opportunities in the traditional job market.”
We made our way back to Portland and our tiny room at my Aunt and Uncle’s home. Jesse continued to work, and I continued to job search and sleep as much as I could. I didn’t do much else and being awake became kind of exhausting. Eventually I managed to get a part time job that paid $10/hr at an upscale outdoor mall in a city just south of Portland. That income allowed us to apply for an apartment in another city south of Portland and we moved again into a really shitty apartment that we could only just barely afford.
I had a lot of fun at that job, but it was still customer service and it felt like a huge step back from the management position in customer service that I left in Spokane. Except now I was paying twice the amount of rent and didn’t have health insurance on top of no full time work. I was making friends though. They were fun and I dipped back into the drinking again. I would not say I had a problem with drinking I just spent too much of my time and money doing it. I was just coming out of my depression and my new friends helped with that a lot. They also liked to go out a lot and I just went along and had a good time. My Instagram posts from the time do not lie about this.
I still felt really stupid for leaving a full time job that paid more to start a part time job that paid less. So I made sure to make my job seem extra fun and cool online. The thing is it was fun and cool. I was working for the property management company for the mall and they let me help out in the office a few days a week doing some marketing, which was the field I was trying to get into. My boss was crazy, but the people were nice and my coworkers were really wonderful. But still, I wanted everyone online to believe that it was paying me much more than it was and it was a full time real career job. That was just a damn lie.
Eventually I had to get a full time job. The part time work was not cutting it and I also really needed to figure out something that would boost me into marketing. So I took a job at FedEx Office, which was really another glorified customer service gig, but with the promise of learning Adobe Creative Suites on the side. A promise that was kept and allowed me to get my next and first career job. So it all worked out but I just have to say that that job was almost worse than any other customer service job I had previously. I don’t know what it is about a place that is literally just supposed to ship packages and print paper for you, but holy shit I’d never been so disrespected in my life. So I spent a lot of time really fucking mad. I’d go to work mad, come home mad, and spend my time off getting mad about having to go back to work. What a nightmare.
The cool part about FedEx though was that I worked with a lot of older people who were really helpful and encouraging to me to not work there forever. They really helped hone my Photoshop skills and we got in some damn good Photoshop wars.
Eventually I’d come home from work and apply for five jobs a day. I was getting interviews like crazy, but nothing was panning out. Then I got a call for a job I didn’t even remember applying to. They wanted to interview me. I spent the next day actually reading through my job application and figuring out what in the world the job was for. Honestly, I still didn’t get it. It was an architecture and engineering firm and they wanted a marketing coordinator to work on things called proposals and put them into layout so I had to know InDesign. Well, of all the creative suites, InDesign was not my strongest, but what the hell. I did the interview and more than the job or the company I really felt strongly toward the woman who interviewed me. She was really excited about my background and didn’t mind at all that I had no experience in the industry or doing anything remotely like this. I almost cried when she actually looked at my education and said my degrees were what helped her make the decision to call me for an interview. Every interview I’d been on before then hadn’t even asked me about them. She could tell from all the side work I had been doing that I was really serious about landing something full time that could benefit from my writing and computer skills. I accepted the job and my income doubled over night.
I did it! I was working full time, not living pay check to pay check and I had some amazing coworkers….for about three months. Then the restructuring came. The company wasn’t doing too well. They laid off my boss, who was really my support with the company, then my amazing co workers all started to take new jobs because they didn’t like the new management. Also, I hated the projects we were working on and without the support of my old boss I was left to do a job I wasn’t really prepared for or hired on to do. Still, my online presence was assuring anyone who was watching that I had MADE IT.
So I spent my days looking for a way out again. My group that started with six people went down to 100% turnover in a year. They hired one person to help me and I was suddenly the most senior marketer at the company with one year of experience. Luckily they hired someone really amazing who had been in the industry forever and realized her mistake in taking this job the moment she showed up. We both were trying to get out and she actually helped me get an interview at the company I work at now.
Now I could tell you that my new job of almost two years is perfect and wonderful and I have it made. It’s true my income shot up again with it, and I do have a great office location with amazing coworkers. I am lucky in that regard. but I am coming to realize that this industry is not for me. I like it well enough and it works for now, but I’m not raving all over social media about my perfect occupation or anything anymore. It just wouldn’t’ be the truth. The truth is it’s working for now and I’m happy enough.
Five years ago I would have looked at me now and thought YES WE FINALLY DID IT. WE HAVE ARRIVED. But the more I work and the more time I put into something I’m not super passionate about the less I think I really have ‘made it’. I’m starting to realize that there is nothing more valuable than my time. The moments I have left. How do I want to spend it?
So that’s the truth of my entire journey from Spokane to Portland. It’s been kind of crazy. The beginning had lots of downs, and I wasn’t always honest online about any of it really. The last three years though have been really lovely and I’m enjoying it a lot. We’ll see what happens next, but I promise I’ll be more honest about it as it comes up.
Push Ups: Still on a resting break as my wrist has been killing me this week, but I am 95% healed and will take up the task of getting back to it this next week. I don’t want to give up on this goal.